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Wed, 30 Mar 2005 00:37:09 GMT

alright.
new lj cos im bored with this one. haha
makeyousayooh
i was totally listening to fight paris when i made
this.. haha so yeah. add it.

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 07:34:05 GMT

i shouldve did this along time ago when those weirdos at school were reading this and talking about my life like they knew me.

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 08:55:31 GMT

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
I'm not okay
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what they mean
I'm not okay
So be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look

well. i must say. this song is probably my favorite at the moment. cos im not okaye. i seriously think im not. all that shit like last year is coming back. i dont want it to. my friends are pretending im not here and this time i think i might just say something. cos a friend doesnt talk to you one day then just totally not even acknowledge your fuckn presence the next. GAWSH. im not o fucking kaye

&i must add. this song makes me cry like a little bitch.

i know my problem sounds pretty petty. but i dont know.. i dont know why it hurts me so much.. i dont get why i always turn like this during this time of the year [fall/winter] i think im like depressed or something. the weather? i dont know. my head is just fckd.

&i stole this from alex who stole this from conniie who stole this from tiff <3

"from the short or long amount of time that you've known me (online or real life) comment ANONYMOUSLY (or leave your name if you want to) what you REALLY think of me. your thoughts, views, speculations. tell me the story of how we met, your first impression. how it changed. if you love me, if there's something you don't like about me, tell me. i'm looking for the honest truth. kthx."

(you can post even if you don't have an LJ & I'VE SCREENED COMMENTS so only I can read them.)

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 05:34:01 GMT

&i dont know if you know about this, but you should go. haha

did you know thats ashlee simpson? omgz i didnt know that. haha

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 04:37:33 GMT

i watched the senses fail dvd. ahah. i actualy liked it. i have to get it now. cos i feel obligated to. its funny cos you see in their first tour how sweet and nice they are. then now theyre kind of big headed and yeahhhh. i dont know. all this talk of senses fail makes me wanna go out and see them in october, but i know if i go..ill be standing there thinking, why the fuck did i decide to go to this instead of every time i fuckn die. DAMMIT. so yeah..but itll be my first time missing them. but ive realized i kind of just wanna go to talk to mike. cos hes my G. blah. wahtever. im not going.i cant. blood brothers is the day before. i cant pull off waht i did last year. haha but yeah. they make me very nostalgic.

anyways. its been hot. wahtthefuckk. haha erhm.....i might see dead to fall next week! theyre playing with haste the day martyr ad and someone else. i forgot. haha thats xciting cos dead to fall never goes here [even though i found a flyer from last year that said they were playng at dandys!] we're gonna do the metal claw and everything..haha uhm yeah. this saturday is fate thirteens last show. and im sure everyone will be there. scars of tomorrow is playing as well. haha funny, i didntk now the singer lives in stupid salinas.

this is my dream boy. lol

it's really sad actually. haha cos. well.. it just is.

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 05:19:35 GMT

im mad at myself cus im dumb. i was in denial and now that i realized [..while everyone else pretty much knew] it is disappointing. sometimes i wish i never met him, then i wouldnt be so hurt and emotional. i hate not talking to him, but i hate talking to him even more. he brrings back feelings that i try to keep tucked away behind me.. they are resurfacing now &i dont know waht to do, but cry &feel sorry for myself.

..my all time high; my lowest of the low.

[&if this didnt make much sense; i guess just deal with it.]

Wed, 14 Apr 2004 05:24:37 GMT

i want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions. no more no less. ask me anything you want. then i want you to go to your journal,copy and paste this allowing all your friends [including myself] to ask you anything.

yeah.askask. itll be fun. took that from jenifer <3

back to school. very boring..no more chill. tylerr is stretching his ears. everyone thinks he looks fag cus his gauges look kind of eh yah. haha my slutty english teacher wasnt here today so i cheated on my mocking bird test, like everyone else &guessd on the vocab one cus i wahnted to sleep. then we got put in groups and did nothing for an hour cept talk to tylerr. &allen almost got in a fight with these black people. then uhm.. OH YEAH. someone texted meh this morning and woke meh up. i was like err picked up my phone checked it. read it with no glasses on lol &was like waht..owh thats cute. replied then i fell asleep again. hahaha

owh yeah, i got the fear before the march of flames cd bitches [=

these words are so awesome..

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 08:14:04 GMT

"but at the same time it's funny because no matter how excessible & you can talk to a person for an hour and show them that like you're the most boring lame person. Some people still put you on that pedastoole and they get all crazy excited about you and then they'll like, touch your arm or ask for an autograph and i... i love that. i think it's the coolest thing, you know waht i mean? it's every kids dream, it's my dream. and its happening. and its so cool. you know, so im never gonna be like.. yeah, that person should ask for my autograph, or this should be happening, but when it happens i'm definately not gonna be like, it's just something stupid cus it's not. it's great. i mean these kids are really excited about wahts going on and we're just gonna be giving it to them as much as we can"- jesse lacey